Welcome myself back to the blog after 2 years!!

I was talking to my girlfriend and decided to take a peek at someone's else blog. After a while, I just realized that I do have a blog, and as I was scrolling back, OMG! I haven't blog for the past 2 years.
The last time when I blog, it was the time when I was quite upset and in despair (that's why I only see lyrics 'cos I was then indulging in my own sadness). Well, at least time flies, and now I am happy again... :D

Back to topic : What are your opinions about people who blogs and gives their comments on their relationship (knowing that their partners can jolly well read them - sometimes I feel it is like hanging your dirty laundries and publicly display them) . I understand some people blog to vent their frustations and show their unhappiness - and it does make them feel happier; thinking someone will read them and feel the same way as you do. It is also a communication bridge when you find that it is hard to vocalize what is in your mind. But if blogging becomes a tool that will hurt another person, I think this is a sad thing.

I remember a conversation with GBB, and he mentioned that singaporean women - high in IQ but low in EQ, and this is getting more and more obvious for the younger age group. Does that mean the more educated you are, the less EQ you have? He mentioned to me a smart woman is one who has a high EQ and can make people work towards them. In relationship, a smart woman is also one who knows how to make her man feels good and looks good in front of the others, but yet able to gain respect for her - and so far, in my opinion, I saw 2 such women in my opinions - Miss J and Miss L. It doesn't that they are not educated, but being educated and yet able to present themselves and know how to handle well, and this is not easy.

Anyway, I seem to be out-of-the-topic again. I just think that everything that one does, if it will hurt another person, should we still continue to do it? Am I too soft? I just want everyone to be happy at the end of the day; and isn't life too short to be always unhappy? Or maybe it is because life is short, one should just do want he wants? Be it blogging, stepping on 2 boats or 3 boats, always putting themselves ahead... I do admire those people who always voiced out what they want, as I think they are 'courageous' and very open and honest about themselves. But when loud becomes toooo LOUD, then it creates issues and problems.

Reflections of the day : To be a smart women, when IQ is high, EQ must be higher.

Kiss Goodbye by Lee Hom

Baby 不要再哭泣
這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著你的手 彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口　但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心 好好欣賞妳的美

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚 不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠你妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨

每一次和妳分開 深深地被妳打敗
每一次放棄妳的溫柔痛苦難以釋懷
每一次和妳分開 每一次Kiss You Goodbye
愛情的滋味 此刻我終於最明白

我懷念的

我懷念的 - 孫燕姿
曲︰李偲菘 詞︰姚若龍 編︰MARTIN TANG

我問為什麼　那女孩傳簡訊給我
而你為什麼　不解釋低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我　不願意敷衍我
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

＊
想問為什麼　我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼　卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著　把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸 狼狽比失去難受

＃
我懷念的是無話不說 我懷念的是一起作夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後 還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌 記得那片星空　
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口　〔誰記得〕　誰忘了

重唱　＊,＃

我懷念的是無言感動 我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動 求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後　我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧　最美的煙火 最長的相擁

誰愛的太自由　誰過頭太遠了
誰要走我的心　誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走　誰忘了看著我
誰讓愛變沉重　誰忘了要給你溫柔

我懷念的　我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手 最暖的胸口

我放手　我讓座　假灑脫 誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了　所以我　沒有哭　沒有說

Digging...? Eeks...

What do you think you will do if you subconciously dig your nose in a public place? And the moment you realize that someone is staring at you, what is your reaction?
1) Quickly act blur and rub your nose
2) Stop digging abruptly and look elsewhere
3) Walk away from the crime scene
4) Continue to dig your nose (*bo chup*)

Why do I have such thoughts? Well, is just that one mister has did this scene and creates an impression in my mind lar. One fine evening, I was taking mrt home from work. Is the usual squeezy scenario where you push me, i push you... selfish people standing infront of the doors and not moving into the train.
But anyway, this is not the point.... Then something caught the edge of my eye. This guy who is rather average looking, wearing a shirt and smart pants, with a smart causal working bag sling across his body. Please note! He is only an average looking guy, but why is he so 'attractive'??? Precisely! He is actually digging his dotty nosey with his 2nd finger from his right hand. And with the bo chup look on his face and with his eyes roll upwards. His chin tilted upwards to convience the digging movements, and the same time to ease the congested traffic in the dungeon. It like EEErkkkkss!!!! Wah lau, in the middle of the waiting platform of City Hall Interchange, this action is ABSOLUTELY NOT tolerable!!!! Please lar, dressed like a working class, so please behave like one. If you are 1 uncle with bald head and wearing the white single and short pants and the flipflop slippers, maybe I will just close 1 eye and shake my head in disapproval.

But this case, no way man! I can't help but practically staring at him straight to his face. Maybe people do have instinct, when they felt that they are being looked or being pressurized, their reflexes awakens, and brings them to the source. When this mister saw me looking at him openly, finally, he felt a bit embarrassed, and I thought he decided to stop doing that. For goodness' sake, he should have done that long ago. He should take care of his own image at least mah! (*Aiyo)
Just as I thought I was being spared from the agony of the digusting behaviour, BUT I was SOOOO wrong!! That mister decided to turn his back aganist (to prevent embarassement from me), and continue to happily dig his nose in another direction............

(...................................................................)

Yes, I was really speechless. What a weird behaviour, isn't it? My jaw almost dropped and at this point the train slowly moves away and the scene slowly faded too...
Why am I not gracious about seeing such actions? Why am I so disturbed by this scene?
I am actually troubled too... Maybe there is a certain expectation framework in my mind. I have already categorized certain group of ppl packaged in a certain way should behave in a expected way.

Maybe like what my "Uncle" says, having less expectations makes ur life easier, and there will not be so many sad incidents happen to you.
But I thought I am not a perfectionist, am I not?
Well, character forms in a most unexpected way, isn't it? When you thought you are not, but actually you are.

Bunch of Kids

Today, meet a group of little kids going to Expo. The way they rattled, they sing, they talk is like a miniature chipmunks wet market... Most people will find them very irritating, but surprisingly, I find them very entertaining. It actually brightens my day and less moody. Imagine, from Redhill travel to Tanah Merah, just the usual handphone ringing, train movements, it is just so routine and dull. Something "so" cute will actually perks your mood up. Even though I don't really like kids, but I do think they are really cute (but still irritating though).

Irritating Train Encounter

Wah Lao!! Today is really terrible lei... Wanna to sleep on the train oso cannot!! (sounds ah lian izzit it) But I can't help it because of the 2 irritating people who had their handphone ringing.

Incident 1 (from my left) - Mister Mohammad thinks that his journey is damn too long, so started to play his handphone.
"Hmm, let me try playing with my new handphone. I think got the jukebox function lei. Let me try try huh... 'uh-chi-bom' (bass sound of the drums coming out) Wah, I am so impressed with myself lei, I can actually compose songs!!!! haha~~ let me try playing it longer ''uh-chi-bom....chi-bom....chi-bom' "
And with this continues from Bugis station all the way to Bedok station, you can imagine how irritating the chi-boom sound is!!! And when you think this is bad enough, there comes another ring-ring horror!!

Incident 2 (from my right) - Mister Cheena dunno-who - wanted to escape only-he-knows-who's pestering, so decide not to listen to his handphone.
"Wah lau, this ah-nia calls me again... I know I suave and handsome lar, no need to start calling early in the morning wah... but I don't want to hurt her feelings lar, so better just ignore the call lar...."
And of course if the ringtone is those nice music song, I might not be so pissed, but is those typical 16 monotone ringing call, and it makes me go "ARGGGGG"!!
"Ringring... Ringring... Ringring... Ringring... and it goes on and on and on and on....... (the usual length of an unanswered call can last up to 1.5 minutes) "

So when you are being attacked first from left then from right.... your mind starts to register all these sounds into the brain, and even when the phone eventually stops ringing, you will start to have hallucinations that the sounds are still there!!! (isn't that freaky!!!) eeeikks!!!

*SPARE ME* - I just want to sleep only mah!!! Isn't that too much for a wish???? :(

Encounter for the Work Day 5

For the past 1 week, i think i have already log as much as 7 tickets (practically >1 per day) for calling the customer helpdesk. there are simply so many things need to apply and ids to be created, and many problems with my laptop.
1) password for laptop hard disk
2) lan administration password
3) internet and intranet password
4) access from home password
5) different database password
6) audio conferencing password
7) etc applications id and password
Wah... i can tell you man, once you forgot the password, thats it. you will never know where is what and what to use. i used to refrain from calling helpdesk as i know how irritating and frustration at times when ppl keep calling and coming to you for the same problem, and when some problem is already on the IT Help online. But what can we do, the website has overflow of data and information and sometimes, i guess it is easier to call and get someone down personally to do things for you.

Moreover, the lotus notes email is something new that I am not familiar with. I have used MS email for >10 years ever since I touched and know Windows. The switch is a bit uncomfortable but it is something different though. But sharks, you cannot change the font size, type and colour when you write an email. That is so boring, but at least, there are some icons for insertion to beautify the email a little, but don't expect too much, that is all given.

A Drama Weekend

My 8D Korea+Jeju Trip Photos

~ Interesting Toilet with warm seat and buttons ~

After a view of the toilet, lets look at some authentic korean food~ Ta Da~~~~~

~ Guess the bearies at the Jeju Teddy Bear Museum ~

Scenery at the Highest Mountain in Jeju

~ Tis the season to see flowers ~

Korean Folktale Stories

Story 1 - Decendents from the Bear

We usually hear that we chinese are the decendents of the dragon. And for the koreans, they claimed to be the decendents from the Bear.

Once upon a time, there was this god called Tan-Jun. Tan-Jun would descend from heaven and visit the earth several times. During that time, there was this bear and lion who sincerely wants to be human, therefore they begged Tan-Jun to teach them a way to become one, but the god refused. So year after year, the bear and lion keep begging without failure until the god gave in.

The method to become one was: To go without meat for 100 days and also to mediate.

Both the lion and bear were excited, so they went together and start they 100 days' journey. But as we all knew, the lion cannot go without meat as meat was the source of his survival. After 7 days of fruits and berries, the lion ran away and left the bear alone. And the bear continued to perserve for 100 days, and after 1oo days, the bear transforms to a woman.

And guess what!? Tan-Jun married this woman, and together with their children, they formed the Koreans.

Story 2 - Red Flowers

The story of the korean red flowers 'Tie2 Zhu3 Hua1'.
It was quite a sad story but no harm reading if you have nothing to do,

This legend has been passed down from many generations.

There was once a woman who had 500 sons (don't tell me why so many as this is puzzling to me too).
The woman's husband was believed to have been passed away, and the woman had to struggle to keep herself and the 500 sons alive. But all the woman could afford was only porridge and with tree bark as the ingredients. Even the woman had starved herself to just give her sons more to eat, but of course, the sons were still under-nourished.
One fine day, as the woman was cooking for dinner (again porridge with tree-bark), one of her legs accidentially fell into the big pot, and she was burnt badly. (FYI, the pot is so big in order to feed 500 children that she might need to climb up and do the cooking)
And for the sudden moment, she lost her balance and one of her leg fell into the pot and was scalded. Just as she was scalded, she had this thought: "her greatest wish to just give her sons a hearty and fulfilling meal just once". Without any thoughts, she threw herself into the pot.

And towards the dinner time, all the 500 sons came back for dinner, and they were looking for their mother, and no matter how they looked, they couldn't find her. So when they stepped into the kitchen, the first thing they smelled was the porridge. It was the smell of porridge cooked with meat, and instantly, the sons were all crazy and flew to grab the porridge to fill their empty stomachs.
Among the 500 sons, the youngest son had a habit - he would make sure he sees his mother before his meals. He started loooking around, and strangely that no matter how he looked, he couldn't his mother. He had a very strange feeling, and when he stepped into the kitchen, he saw all his brothers lying on the floor around - sleeping and had all had a very satisifed look on them. He couldn't understand why, and he started to look into the pot and as he digged to the bottom, he saw a set of bones, and he suddenly realised that it was nobody but his very own mother's bones. He went sooooooo mad that he ran to his brothers and scolded them for being heartless!!
But the 499 brothers were all in a very daze mood after a satisfied meal, and so they all didn't bother with what the youngest brother said.
The youngest son was so upset that he ran away.
Until the next morning, when all the sons had waken, they started to look for their mother again. Finally, they found the bones at the bottom of the pot, and the sons were all horrified that they had eaten the meat of their own mother and were crying bitterly. At the same time, they also realized the missing brother and start to search for him.
Finally they found their youngest brother and saw him kneeling at the edge of the mountain and had became a stone. All the brothers were so upset with the death of their dearest mother and brother, they all fall to their knees and cried. The tears were red and stained the flowers on the mountains. And eventually, the brothers become stones as well.

~That's all folks ~

** Enlightment **

Just attended a friend's sister's wake.. is rather disturbing to me... the fact a young gal just aged 21, had left this world forever, living her family and friends in agony.

You can be enlightened in 2 ways :-

To realize that you need to grab hold and cherish what you have in life, and those that you are still pursing, go all for it before you regret that you never had it while you have the chance.

OR

There is no such big deal about things, just take things easily, and to cherish what you have. Learn to let things go.... If is meant to be yours, is yours....

Yup, is rather extreme.. is either you go all the way, or you let go all the way....

~ Valentine Day ~

What a day!!

Today is valentine's day.... Yesterday, my mum asked me whether I have dates a not.. I say 'No lar'... Then she commented and said "Shi Bai'.... sigh... even my mum 'despise' me... hahaha....WHY!!
Anyway, these few weeks, been quite busy at work, even though I may not have work to do and able to leave workplace early, but you will tend to feel 'guilty' when you see your colleagues still working hard...
In the end, I went to the salon for my massage to pamper myself - soothing and relaxing.. Then my friends asked me down to the union bar... But what a pity!! I sprained my ankle last sat while trying to flag a cab.... (so clumsy rite~) But I still went and enjoyed the music there...
Hmm... it was not as crowded as Fridays.. may consider to go there regularly...

Thats how I spend my 2006 valentine's day... ;p

~ Happy CNY 2006 ~

To Everyone that I know!! Happy Doggie New Year..... :)

WOOF

~ Happy 2006 ~

Well Well... today is the 2nd PH of the year.. Is Hari Raya Haji... Been a boring day for me, it has been raining the whole day again since sunday.. me just watch tv and tv and still tv... sigh... the most memorable day of this year so far, it must have been last sunday.. is not really any special event, but more of because after watching the 'Ren Ci' charity show, esp the Ming Yi Fa Shi performed his stunt.. has been thinking of it alot these 3 days... I think he is really a magnificant guy... really respect him a lot. (maybe the least we can do is to do our part in donating bah)... hahaha~ do I sound like the host!?! please call 1900-112-8888/8889.... ;p
Anyway, a new year and a new start!! all the best for me!! :)

Happy New Year to my dear family and frens too...

~ A Blue Blue Monday ~

What a day... NOTHING in here... just feel like scribbling *something*
looks damn boliau....

~ Hair Perming ~

Just did a spa perm for my hair on sunday...
Hair becomes sooooooo frizzy and dry.. (well, my frens have all warned me aganist the side effects of hair perming but I stili insisted though).
Arg.... looks so "old" at times....

~ Almost a month to new job ~

Time really flies, and it is almost 1 mth to my new job.... today encounter a lot of new terms and things at work... ~blur blur blur. also sort of 'volunteer' myself to become the welfare community for my dept. haha... maybe the next time u know, I will be chasing $$ from my colleagues....
today also first time da-ba the food from the new restuarant recently opened... hrmm.. not bad, the yi-mian taste good, has hotel standard.. will try more of the food from there...
meanwhile, just a normal day........

~ Thru' the Holidays ~

This week has been sooooo shiok... Tuesday deepavali and Thursday hari raya.

~ A Cycling Day at P.Ubin ~

Went to cycling at P.Ubin yesterday(1.Nov.05)
Imagine! Only after 1/4 of century, this is my first time stepping on the land of Ubin.
Feelin' soooooooo excited... Made a lot of preparation, brought my new Nike cap, brought my digital camera, brought my water bottle.. woke up at 7am to get ready (even earlier than my usual time for work).
Then Something happened!! I LOST MY NEW NIKE CAP - at the Jetty first thing in the morning!! *whine whine I cannot believe it, I haven't even got the chance to wear it and it is LOST!!!!! I was then exposed to the sun the hottest time of the day.

But good things happened too. I met my long-lost poly fren, Yvonne.Hehee.. honestly, was not very close to her last time, but when we met again, the feeling was soo good. She is still the same old self, bubbly and chatty. It just clicked!! :)

Back to the topic on the cycling trip.. OMG... the road was so so soooooooo bumpy at some points. I was not a very good cyclist, so I will sometimes not able to brake in time, or control my bike properly. And the bike kept going 'Ek Ek Ek' those squeeky sounds... maybe not oiled enough... there are some muddy paths through the forest and there was this group of ang mo, keep pressing us to cycle faster.. haha~ but we couldn't be bothered, I just secretly wished they don't get those muddy waters splattered onto us when they overtook us. And at one point, we had lost the track of one couple.. luckily, manage to re-unite... *Phew*
After cycling for a couple of hours, we went back to the more urbanized side of the island to have our lunch. Haha, at first, everyone was complaining not hungry, just want to drink water only, eventually, we still ordered a 10-course alike lunch lor.. and everything was finished ~ + a coconut for everyone... *Cooling*
Finally after the sumptous lunch, we were going for another round of easy ride, not as challenging as the first round. Cos by this time, everyone's butt were in pain... *haha...
Took a few pics and I felt like being embraced by the nature. The feeling was sooooo Nice!!
Finally by 5++pm, we finally picked our steps back to the main land ~ SinGaPore! hahaha....
*Bye P.Ubin!!! See Ya Soon!!!!!

~ Nov 1st 2005 ~

just another normal day... one day after halloween... idiot! just write one long long post, but kena deleted accidentally... sigh... no mood to write it down anymore..

summary, to learn to appreciate ppl around you and be thankful everyday for ppl who always remember you.... hahaa... short and sweet...